Life by the beach

"Dan apabila aku sakit, maka Dia lah yang menyembuhkan penyakitku;" The Holy Quran, Surah Asy Syu'ara' [26:80]

My stomach was in knots. I am always nervous even when I saw the word HOSPITAL. I am not fond of needles and I used to faint at the sight of blood. As much as I wanted to avoid it, there is always the need to be there. Seated outside the operation theatre amongst family members who waited anxiously for hours... is not a situation you want to picture yourself to be in.

When the agony of the 'wait' was over... there was the painful feeling of watching someone waking up with the sedative slowly taking off. Weak and in pain, all I could do was stood silently and tried to think of something to say to the family standing closest. Visiting sick relatives usually get us to think and rethink about our own presence, our own life journey. To stop, assess and reevaluate our track. Should we continue the intended path or have we been derailed?

I was handed over a small book and recited the Zikir to grant us Syifaa. Only from You, Ya Rabb, the Mighty Healer.

Today was the most awaited date for my nephews and nieces. Their parents' flight back home. They braved through the 56 days on their own... well, under the care of a now semi-professional 'nanny' i.e. yours truly!

My log-book as follows:
I have burnt lunch once (defrosting mum's pervious' nights' dinner), nearly burnt a trouser at ironing, passionately over-watered the nearly-withered plants (after realizing that my cousin actually have live plants outside the balcony), left blisters on the right arm from frying chicken and spent two sleepless nights at the children's ward!

Hey, you don't know me. I am not that bad. Alhamdulillah, the hospital experience alerted me of their sister's habit of not taking enough drinking water. She pecked and picked her food. When she was first admitted, I nearly cried and blamed myself for not being meticulous... I didn't pay attention to their eating habits. Alhamdulillah, she is more lively and energetic now. She drank water at regular intervals. Mum helped picked some vitamins for her to take.

Saturday, 7th May 2011.
I woke up early morning for Subuh prayer. Thank you, Ya Rabb, for giving me the opportunity to experience the 56 days of challenge. I have gotten to know more about my cousin's children, love them and most important of all, the journey had been worthwhile. The tasks taught me a lot of things, made me somehow a slightly better person (a long way to go), leant useful lessons in patience and passion through things that we simply took for granted and most important of all, thank you Ya Rabb, for being there watching over us.




My life is back to normal. Well, slightly bit more than normal. I am 56 days older and wiser. I still have a few days of leave (well, what's left of my 28 days leave anyway) that I can spend ...umm let me see, after days spent driving kids to school, cooking, laundry, afternoon naps, surfing the net, catching up on work... maybe I will just rest at home, stay away from my computer (when possible), maybe improve on my baking skills... arghhhh nothing exciting, but these will do for now!

or MAYBE I will go to the movies again. I watched Fast & Furious: Fast Five last night with Elva and Nana. Maybe I will watch it again heh... will you come with me? ;)