Life by the beach

Some people simply hit it off at the first meeting. Things just clicked into place and their jokes made sense (or at least, you patiently/sincerely play along). You felt that you can trust this person (off course, to a degree) and felt comfortable sharing your thoughts and interests. You either become the best of buddies or form a clique. I have secondary schoolmates that I have lost contact since graduation and yet when we meet after more than ten years, we simply picked up where we left off.

Then there are certain individual that irks you (without any logical reasons). Their presence seemed to take up your private space. Their 'well-meaning' chitchat seemed to pollute the sound quality and they tend to blend into the background noise. Their expressive concerns could sometimes be irritating... etc etc.. if you know what I mean. Eh, sorry you would not know what I am talking about. This was just something that came up and was debated with a friend. A useless debate... current and nagging. I argued that this was not the case, you do not dislike a certain individual for no apparent reason. Well, a friend once told me that, we might see ourself in that individual... just like Magnets, like poles repel?

I have had difficulties in trying to wrap up this post and at first I was unsure what was the point to this post at all. Then I realized that I have met a certain individual that seemed to challenge my peaceful environment. Not that this person present a potential dilemma to my already chaotic life. I have learnt to understand my current predicament and succeeded to keep the mess manageable. This person showed the will to organize the disorganized, to command and calm the waves of disjointed concepts and probably will make life less exciting than it already is.

There’s an old saying that "the best predictor of future behavior is past behavior", should I put on my protective headgear and body armour?

I sat snugly on the prayer mat after performing a two 'rakaat' prayer for the fulfillment of needs or Hajat Prayer. I raised up my hands and started to read out my 'doa'.

I have had a bad day. A sad day. There are some things in life that I would like to improve, decisions in the past that I regretted making and hoped that Allah will grant me all my wishes. I listed all my needs and yet wanted so much more...

Forgive me, Ya Allah, I do not want to be so ungrateful. Thank you for all the good things in life that you have granted upon us... thank you for the health
(at this juncture, I remembered an afternoon a few days back, when a student suffered a seizure just as he was about to take his tea break, how he spilled all his food all over the desk when he loose control of his body)

Thank you for blessing me with perfectly grown legs, so I can walk anywhere I like... (while some student braved their way to school on wheelchairs, everyday hoping that their friends will always stick around just in case they can't reach that door, that special room or anywhere around school)

Thank you for the gift of sight ... (when a colleague have to walk around in 'total darkness', I wasted every second of that guiding rays)

Ya Allah, Most forgiving and Most Merciful
thank you for everything,
(I was teary eyed at this point,
and stopped myself,
....for wanting so much more?)